Sometimes I get mad at myself. But not at the current version of me, I get mad at Past Maralee. Past Maralee makes some dumb decisions. She often thinks things like, “Future Maralee will have time to iron, so I’ll just leave the clothes sitting in the drier to get wrinkly.” or “Future Maralee won’t mind sorting through all the baby clothes so I’ll just stuff all these onesies into a tub for later. I’m sure Future Maralee will have more time than I do now.” or even “Future Maralee will probably have a sensible late night snack, so she won’t mind if I just eat a chocolate bar right now.” I get so mad at that Past Maralee who condemns me to wasting my time ironing or sorting through baby clothes or eating celery. Am I the only one who thinks this way?
I seem to always be putting off until tomorrow the things I really should be doing today. I have no trouble coming up with reasons why surely later I’ll be ready to take on the challenges that I just don’t want to dig into now. I am learning as my life seems to get ever more chaotic and complicated the best time to do the things that need to be done is now. If I can just keep that lesson in mind, I’m sure Past Maralee and I will get along just fine.